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01 August 2015 @ 09:58 am
I was asked to do a 31/31 with a poet who just moved to Seattle this August. We're posting them privately here on live journal. If you are still around here and want to be on the feed that sees mine, let me know.

I've never finished one of these month of poetry challenges, so we'll see how I do this time around!
31 December 2014 @ 02:04 pm
Just wondering who is still here. From my news feed it looks pretty bleak, and with a lot of people just auto posting their twitter feeds here (I'll probably be deleting if that describes you).

I'm looking for a somewhat safe space that I can explore some thoughts. Not sure yet if that is here or elsewhere.
04 January 2012 @ 11:33 am
because really, what else can I do but try.

Day 3 not smoking.

Last night was difficult, but not impossible.

Using lists to keep my brain focused.

Sleeplessness sucks - woke up at least 4 times last night, wide awake.

The hardest part for me is never really the first few days. I tend to have a very positive look on the the whole detox process, etc., but it's days 5-12 that kick my ass, when the emotional stuff kicks in.

I just have to keep reminding myself about what my motivation is.
02 April 2011 @ 03:04 pm

Woke up with a bad taste in my mouth.
Proof that the killing off is working.
This is going to be harder than I thought.
Twenty-seven years of hate
Is hard to let go with a simple mantra,
A facebook page, and photograph.

I realize it’s not working.
If it’s what I really wanted, I’d
Choose another model
Something with more gun power
Or gravitational pull.

Love is a Jasper John’s canvas
Something abstract, yet simple,
that I’ll never quite put my hands on.
My body has been a growing canvas
Stretched too porous to hold paint.
Tattoos just roll off like india ink on water.

I’m not ready for what this cleansing will do
How it will make it harder to hide from the fact
That I don’t own any fun house mirrors.
The reflection is just the reverse of the space
Standing in front of it. The failed art work
I’ve tried for too long to shred.
01 April 2011 @ 05:38 pm
My Heart Is a Pinata

~for Karen

You might have thought I was kidding
But I wasn't. See.

We act as each other's censors.
Not censors. I don't try to stop the words

But let you know if the idea is lacking
intellect. That's dumb.

You see, we don't listen to each other
anyway. Especially when it really matters.

Like how Thadra told me to stop talking to him.
How I keep talking to him anyway.

How I told Leigh that she wasn't alone.
But she still feels really alone.

Like I do. Even though I try to remember
that I'm not. Sometimes the words aren't enough.

Sometimes it's better to just buy the pinata
even though taking it on a plane would be ridiculous.

It's not so much about the candy here is it?
It's not so much about the spilling out

But the battery. The beating something
over the head with a stick.

I'm a mess of tissue paper and Elmer's glue.
Hallow, patched, held together just long enough

To be the life of the party.
19 February 2011 @ 02:33 pm
10X10: A Celebration of Art and Community
Deadline: April 30, 2011

The Great River Arts Association in Little Falls, MN is celebrating it’s 10 year anniversary of occupying its building at 122 SE First Street in historic, downtown Little Falls.

To celebrate, we will be exhibiting a special show in our front window gallery called 10X10: A Celebration of Art and Community.

We are asking artists and community members from around the world to consider submitting a 2 dimensional piece of art that is 10X10 in size (inches or centimeters – no feet!) for this exhibit. The piece should NOT be framed. If matted – the final size of the mat should be 10X10 in size. All mediums accepted.

These art pieces will be sold by the Great River Arts Association during the exhibit as a fundraiser for the non-profit arts organization. All submissions will be considered a donation to Great River Arts.

We will begin hanging art in the front window starting April 1st. The last day to have your piece added to the display will be noon, April 30th (this is not a post mark deadline). The art pieces will be sold for $20.11 starting at our Party for the Arts event on Saturday, April 30th. The art will remain displayed on the wall for sale through May. Unsold artwork will remain the property of the Great River Arts Association.

Art work will be hung anonymously. Once a piece has been purchased, the artists name will be added to the exhibit. A thank you will be posted on our web site and as part of the exhibit listing all contributing artists.

To submit for this exhibition:

* Deliver your 2D piece of art to the Great River Arts Association by noon on April 30, 2011.

Physical Address:
122 SE First Street
Little Falls, MN 56345

Mailing Address:
PO Box 157
Little Falls, MN 56345

* Art work should NOT be signed or have your name visible on the front of the piece.
* All art work should measure either 10X10 inches or 10X10 centimeters.
* Include a cover sheet with the following information:
1. Name of artist (for publicity)
2. Short artist/biographical statement
3. Name of artwork (if applicable)
4. Contact information (address, phone, email)
5. Website (if you would like a link included on our website)
6. A notation if you would like to receive a tax donation receipt.

If you have any questions, feel free to contact us at 320-632-0960 or office@greatart.org.
19 January 2011 @ 09:18 am
i have a filter here in my LJ called fat girl slim. It was created to discuss all things weight related:

my experiences with Weight Watchers
working out
emotional issues
and all things health-related.

If you are on this filter, you received a test post today.

If you did not receive the test post today, and would like to be added to the filter, please let me know.

I have tried this before (the posting - as well as the weight-loss stuff), but am hoping to do better this time, and if I do do better, will most likely start a more regular blog.

I have been inspired by the blog group "Prior Fat Girl," and feel that if I can get things going for myself, I might be able to pay that inspiration forward.

So, send me a note if you'd like to be a part of my little experiment and weight-loss blogging journey of whatever it might be, and I'll add you to the group. If, after you try it out, you are not impressed and have other things you'd rather read, you can ask me to remove you at any time.

27 December 2010 @ 02:01 pm
At the end of the year, every year, a lot of people fill their journals and facebooks and such with negative notes "good riddens 2010!" sort of things, and I'll admit that I've probably jumped on that bandwagon before, but Project Happy Cups has got me thinking...wouldn't it be more fun to make a list of all the awesomeness from the year rather than all the yuckiness? It might be harder (I know it usually is for me) but even in the most negative things, we can find the positive.

For example, I could say that losing Gabrielle was completely horrible, and while true, isn't is better to remember things like:

Having a slumber party with Gabrielle in Austin and watching Heathers.
Seeing the strength and love in my family - demonstrated by simple "bunny up" text messages.
Developing stronger relationships with several friends (Karen, Angus, Missy - I'm looking at you).
I got to start Gabrielle's bunny book - and share all the messages you wrote to her and giggle at all the pictures.

So my challenge to myself and those of you who wish to accept it is to try to write a list of all the awesome things that happened this year (no matter how big or small) and share it in your journal. Let's wrap up 2010 with good thoughts and celebration.
03 December 2010 @ 05:45 pm
I want to get back to writing letters.

I'm going to start with holiday cards. I'm not promising you'll get a December holiday card, but you should get A holiday card of some sort or the other from me within the next 3 months if you reply with your address here, or, if you want a little more privacy, send it to me in a private message or via email at cynthiafrench1@gmail.com.

Also, please note that my email address has changed. Please, if you love me, and want me to have your email address, send me a quick email, or leave your email address here for me.

I got tired of my old email server popping up windows telling me to put in my password, and thought that by deleting the account, it would just stop asking the server to get new emails, but it actually deleted all of the emails I'd ever received through that email account - so I lost you. I'm torn up about it. But I know you're out there...somewhere.

24 November 2010 @ 10:05 pm
You might not be able to help with everything, but maybe you can help with one thing!

Sunday: 9am, need someone to take me to pick up my UHaul truck.

Sunday: 10am-7pm. Need people to help me load the UHaul truck.

Sunday: 7pm-midnight: Need people to hang out with, share a pint with, it's my last night in Minneapolis. We'll start at my apartment and end up at Lyle's (practically next door).

Monday: When I wake up until about 3pm, I'll be cleaning my apartment. If you like scrubbing things instead of moving things, you could come over.

Monday: 3pm (timing is flexible - can't do 3, but can do 5? let me know!), I need at least 1 person to drive with me up to Little Falls (in your car or in my Jeep), help me unload the UHaul and return it.

Monday night OR Tuesday morning: Drive me back to Minneapolis to get my Jeep (or I'll drive you back to Minneapolis in my Jeep). If you opt to stay overnight Monday night, I'll take you out on the town in Little Falls.

It'll be great! You'll get to work off your turkey day binge. I'll get to hang out with you some more. You'll be doing something super nice and awesome. I'll be off to a great start in Little Falls. You'll earn even more of my love and admiration. I'll make you a piece of art in return and feed you while you help.

Please respond and let me know when I can expect that you'll be able to help out! Every little bit helps!

Feel free to bring friends - the more the merrier!